ᴇғғʏ sᴛᴏɴᴇᴍ ❀ ᴏᴘᴇɴ ᴛᴏ ᴀʟʟ
[effy hadn't wanted to be chosen. she didn't know how to fight, even though she had trained with a knife and bow and arrow. she had learned how to stitch wounds and disinfect them, which would probably come in handy, for her or for someone else. she knew she wouldn't make it to the packs and weapons when they first arrived, so she took off instead. some of them would probably disperse for a while before coming back. kids were predictable. it was easy to guess what they would do.
so she ran for a short while before stopping and taking her time to circle back into the opening. she was careful to avoid people, hiding behind trees and in bushes, careful for bugs. a part of her was wishing she had made a team for herself. if not now, later. she could survive on her own, she knew that. everyone knew that about her. but a team member or two would help her win. she remembered that she couldn't get close to them -- not too close, anyway. if she did, she wouldn't be able to kill them. but she wasn't even a killer, and it made it all the more difficult to overcome that thought. to kill someone, a living person. a living, thriving, teenager.
she shut her eyes, trying to escape, trying to shove those thoughts out. she couldn't let it take over her. if she did, she'd go mad thinking about it. carefully, she made her way back, making sure to stop every few minutes to listen to what was around her, even looking up into the trees. effy couldn't risk dying.]
so she ran for a short while before stopping and taking her time to circle back into the opening. she was careful to avoid people, hiding behind trees and in bushes, careful for bugs. a part of her was wishing she had made a team for herself. if not now, later. she could survive on her own, she knew that. everyone knew that about her. but a team member or two would help her win. she remembered that she couldn't get close to them -- not too close, anyway. if she did, she wouldn't be able to kill them. but she wasn't even a killer, and it made it all the more difficult to overcome that thought. to kill someone, a living person. a living, thriving, teenager.
she shut her eyes, trying to escape, trying to shove those thoughts out. she couldn't let it take over her. if she did, she'd go mad thinking about it. carefully, she made her way back, making sure to stop every few minutes to listen to what was around her, even looking up into the trees. effy couldn't risk dying.]